Silent But Deadly…

Self-doubt. Anxiety. Unforgiveness. Anger. Heartbreak. Feelings of inadequacy. Worry.

That’s just to name a few. What do all these things have in common? They are emotions…negative ones that normally dwell within one’s heart or thoughts. Have you ever thought yourself into a bad mood? Or maybe clutch your chest because you could feel the pain in your heart physically just as much as you could feel it emotionally? We’ve all been in a place at some point in our lives where the pain we felt inside was just too great. It literally felt as if the pain inside was clawing its way to the outside. Chances are, one of the emotions listed above, as well as many others not listed were involved somehow. And I’m here to let you know that you are not alone.

People deal with their emotions in many ways. There are those who mask their pain in public, have power over their emotions, have strong support/friend groups they trust and can vent to, etc. If you’re one of those people, you’re one of the lucky ones. If you’re more like me, you’re the one who unintentionally wears your heart on your sleeve. BIG emphasis on “unintentionally”. People like this likely show their emotions on their face and body language no matter how much they think they’re hiding it. They are emotionally fragile (no matter how much it’s denied) and susceptible to being overthrown by their emotions. They may not share their feelings because of mistrust or the fear or being judged, misunderstood, and even mocked. However, all these emotional behaviors and characteristics are not set in stone for any one kind of person. It is possible for them to be mixed and varied amidst every individual.

You see, the truth is… nothing in life is perfect. People will fail you, betray you, speak ill of you, hate you, and just straight up hurt you… even if you are undeserving of it. And if you’re like me, you’ll probably forgive and overlook repeatedly until you just can’t anymore. Emotional PTSD is very real. Over time, the way you used to view the world has changed. This can be a difficult thing to handle, especially to those who can’t bring themselves to trust many people.

If you know anyone who is going through a tough time, reach out to them. Pray for them. They may not always be up for discussion and PLEASE never force one.
A little can go a long way. Let them know what they mean to you and how important they are. It’s okay to hug them and say “I know you’re not okay, but I’m here for you anyway”. And if you are the one that’s going through, allow me to personally tell you that you are not alone, you are understood, and you are loved. Speak out. If verbal communication does not work for you, find another outlet. Your voice, mental health, and feelings matter.

My contact page is always open. 💖

The mind and the heart are gateways to your spirit. Therefore, they are the most vulnerable target points when the devil wants to stir up havoc. Guard your gates.

Yours Truly

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